Chapter
Forty-five
Peter
turned back into the lounge and stood facing Karen.
‘Well
I hope you’re satisfied. Making my own mother turn against me,’
he accused.
‘Don’t
be silly,’ Karen began. But Peter cut her short.
‘Don’t
tell me not to be silly!’ he shouted. ‘Don’t you ever do that
to me again.’
‘What
exactly have I done?’
‘You
know what. You’ve been sitting in here, making plans with my
mother, secret plans.’ He paced the room. ‘Pushing me out in
the cold. You’d do well to remember who you’re married to.’
He marched to the table, picked up the mug of untouched coffee and
spun to face her. ‘And why haven’t you drank your coffee? I
suppose you think I’m poisoning you.’
‘Of
course I don’t. I just forgot,’ Karen said. ‘It’s cold now.
I’ll make another one.’
She
stood as she spoke and grabbed the cup from his hand before he could
object, took it into the kitchen and tipped the contents into the
sink. She filled the kettle and switched it on at the wall. Peter
followed her.
‘I
know your game,’ he said. ‘You think you can get my mother on
your side, don’t you?’
‘I
don’t know what you mean,’ Karen said. ‘Margaret was being
kind. She wants to help both of us. She’s worried about how
things are.’ As soon as she spoke the words, Karen realised she’d
made a mistake.
‘Worried
about how things are?’ he asked. ‘What the hell have you been
saying to her? Telling her lies about me, I suppose.’
‘No,’
Karen denied. ‘I haven’t told her anything. I wouldn’t dare.’
She felt sick. ‘Look Peter, I don’t know what’s happening to
us, but things are getting worse aren’t they? Between us, I mean.’
‘What
are you saying?’ He sounded more angry now. ‘Do you want a
divorce? I can make your life a misery if you try and divorce me.
You wouldn’t be able to manage without me. No money, no home,
nothing.’
‘That’s
not what I meant.’ Karen could feel the terror rising. ‘I just
can’t see a way forward, that’s all.’
‘I’ll
tell you the way forward,’ he said. ‘You stop all this nonsense
about working at the hospital and get rid of that baby. Then we can
make a fresh start.’ He paused. ‘If you really loved me, that’s
what you’d do.’
‘I
don’t understand. One minute you want me to keep the baby and the
next you don’t. What do you want?’
‘I’ve
told you enough times. I want you to be a good wife. Show me you
care about this marriage. Stop living in a fantasy world.’
‘I’m
not.’
‘Thinking
you can have a career in that place. Believing I can bring up a
child that’s not even mine.’ He paused. ‘Just get yourself
sorted and get back to how you used to be!’
‘I
can’t do that,’ said Karen. ‘Even if I gave up my job, I
couldn’t give up the baby. It’s a part of me now, surely you can
understand that. I know it must be very hard for you, but I just
hoped that once you saw the baby you might change your mind.’
‘I’ll
never change my mind. So you’ll have to change yours.’
‘I
can’t,’ said Karen. ‘This is my own flesh and blood.’
‘Your
flesh and blood, but not mine!’
‘I’m
sorry, but there’s nothing I can do about that now.’
‘We’ll
see about that.’ Peter gripped her wrist and pulled her to face
him. She could smell the coffee on his bitter breath. ‘You’re
still my wife,’ he spat, twisting her wrist and forcing her against
the sink unit. She felt the cold of the metal on her back.
Peter
glared at her a moment longer. As he turned and walked away, Karen
felt a flutter in her belly. She placed her hands on the swelling of
her womb. A feeling of love surged in her heart as she became
conscious that it was her baby stirring.
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