Chapter
Forty-one
Karen
drifted in and out of a timeless sleep.
The
house was quiet when she finally woke. The light was in the sky but
the sun hadn’t yet risen. She could hear the faint sound of the
birds in the street outside as she crept from her bed, trying not to
wake Peter who was snoring beside her. She glanced at him in the dim
grey light, realising the depth of her feelings for him had not
waned. She paused a moment before pushing away the regret which was
trying to overwhelm her resolve to break free from his power.
Quietly
gathering up her clothes, she eased open the bedroom door, freezing
for a long moment as Peter turned over in his sleep. Eventually she
closed the door behind her and tip-toed to the bathroom where she
hurriedly dressed herself.
Karen
had no plan - she just knew she had to get away. Going to Margaret
would be of no use as she would just send her back home again. She
couldn’t even think beyond getting out of the house. Her mind was
flooding with thoughts she didn’t want to think. Getting away from
Peter was the only answer to her safety.
Without
flushing the toilet, she opened the bathroom door and listened. No
sound came from the rest of the house. The bedroom door was still
firmly closed. She stood at the top of the stairs and looked around.
The feeling of remorse was hanging heavily over her as she realised
that she might not come back here again. But where would she go?
Without trying to find the answer she made her way to the bottom of
the stairs and the front door. Her bag was slung over the back of a
chair in the hall. She clutched it to her and turned the front door
knob. It was locked. Trying to unlatch the lock, she realised that
it was already unlatched. She panicked, wondering what had happened.
Then she looked up and noticed that the door had an extra lock
fitted at the top of the door. Her fear drew to a new level.
She
ran to the back door suspecting even before she reached it that it
would be the same story there. She rattled the handle, whilst
wondering as she did what she thought she could achieve. She sobbed
in frustration, leaned against the door and slid down the glass panel
to the floor. She sat hunched over her knees, wailing inwardly in
frustration.
‘Now
what are you doing?’ Peter stood in the doorway, glaring down at
her. She looked up and his glare turned to a smile.
‘Poor
Karen. You really are in a state aren’t you?’ He reached down
and took her by the elbow. ‘Come along, let’s get you back to
bed. I’ll make you a nice cup of tea.’ He pulled her up
roughly, almost wrenching her arm out of its socket.
Karen
screamed at him. ‘Let me go! Please let me go! Why are you doing
this to me?’
He
held her arm in a tight grip and pulled her face close to his.
‘Now
just shut up!’ he spat. ‘You’re not well and you need to get
some sleep.’
‘I’m
not ill,’ Karen shouted back. ‘You just can’t stand me being
my own person. You can’t get away with this.’
‘Just
watch me.’ His voice was quieter now. ‘No-one will believe you.
Why should they?’ He laughed. ‘I only have to give the word
and they’ll lock you up, just like one of your patients.’
‘That
sort of thing doesn’t happen any more,’ Karen retorted. ‘You
can’t just lock people up without good reason.’
‘But
we have good reason, don’t we?’ Peter stroked her face. ‘Dr.
Wright has seen how you’ve been and my own dear Mother too.’
Karen
gasped.
‘Oh
yes,’ he went on. ‘You thought she was on your side didn’t
you? Well it didn’t take much to convince her that you’re
completely unstable. And the doctor? That was even easier. Because
it’s true, you really are going mad and it wouldn’t take much
more to tip you completely over the edge. I really am worried about
you Karen. I don’t know what you might do next to harm yourself.
And then there’s the little problem of you hurting other people.’
‘What
are you talking about?’ Karen was horrified at the depths of his
fantasies.
‘The
kitchen knife you attacked me with of course.’ He paused,
releasing his grip on her slightly. ‘Don’t tell me you don’t
remember the kitchen knife? It was lucky I managed to wrestle it
from you in time.’
‘You’re
insane!’ Karen said. ‘None of those things have happened.
No-one would believe you.’
‘That’s
where you’re wrong. You see, dear Karen, they already do believe
me. Why would they not? Now then, let’s get you back up those
stairs.’
He
steered her towards the hallway. Karen knew that she couldn’t
fight him. He led her up the stairs and watched as she lay back down
on the bed.
‘That’s
better,’ he said. ‘Just rest there and you’ll be well again
before you know it.’ He smiled. ‘I’m going to make you some
breakfast now.’
Karen
said nothing. He shrugged his shoulders and left the room. She
could hear him in the kitchen, making tea. The smell of toast wafted
up the stairs. Her stomach churned with hunger.
He
was back in a short while with a tray of tea and toast, cut up into
triangles and spread with marmalade. He placed the tray on her lap
and stood back.
‘Just
how you like it,’ he said. ‘Now be a good girl and eat up.’
Karen
sat and looked at the tray. She was frightened to eat or drink
anything he offered her, knowing that somehow he’d been drugging
her.
‘Now
come along.’ Peter sat on the bed beside her and picked up the
plate of toast. ‘I’m not leaving this room until you’ve eaten
something,’ he said. ‘Come along darling - eat.’
Without
looking at him, she took a slice from the plate, hoping that he’d
back-off and leave her in peace.
‘Go
on,’ he urged. ‘Eat up. There’s plenty more.’
Karen
nibbled the edge of the slice nervously.
‘Come
on, Karen,’ Peter said impatiently. ‘What do you think I’ve
done, poisoned the marmalade?’
‘Of
course not. I’m just not that hungry.’
‘Nonsense,’
he insisted. ‘You must eat. In your condition it’s important to
eat well.’
‘I
thought you wanted me to get rid of the baby. Why are you suddenly
concerned for it. You don’t care.’ Karen was angry now.
‘Of
course I care.’ His voice was mocking. ‘You know, Karen, your
imagination is getting beyond a joke. Do you really think I could do
you any harm?’
‘I
don’t know,’ Karen said.
‘I
just want you to be how you used to be. You were alright before you
started to get these weird ideas in your head.’ He put down the
plate and took her free hand. ‘I know I was upset when you told me
you were pregnant with this baby, which isn’t mine, by the way. I
just thought I’d remind you of that little fact.’ He sighed,
then went on. ‘I was upset but I can understand you don’t want
to get rid of the baby. I’ve just had to come to terms with it,
haven’t I?’
‘So
you think I should have the baby now, then?’ Karen’s hopes
lifted a little.
‘No
choice is there?’ he replied. ‘Now eat something before you make
yourself ill.’
‘I
don’t know if I can believe you. You’ve changed your mind so
suddenly.’
‘I
haven’t,’ he denied. ‘I’ve been thinking about it for a
while now.’
Karen
was unsure of what to believe any more. She was tired of fighting
and just wanted to feel safe again.
‘Come
on darling,’ he coaxed. He stroked her cheek and smiled softly at
her. ‘Just eat a little bit.’
‘Alright,’
Karen conceded and bit into the toast. It tasted as it always did
and she began to doubt her suspicions. Hunger was getting the better
of her and before long she’d finished the first slice. Soon the
plate was empty. Peter passed her the mug of tea that had been
placed on the bedside table.
‘Good
girl,’ he said. 'Now a nice cup of tea to wash it all down.’ He
sat watching her as she drank the contents of the mug.
She
could still see his smiling face as she drifted into oblivion.
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